Letter from Mistress

Hello My little follower,

I am writing because I want to get deeper inside your little weak mind ... And wallet of course. However one step at a time.
I like to feel the buzz of taking every last penny you have. Otherwise where is the fun?

Are you working your fingers to the bone? Taking overtime, an extra job or perhaps pimping yourself in order to provide for your Glorious Queen? You know we talked about this and you promised Me you would do everything in your power to make more money.

And you know you promised that everything you earn is Mine. Everything you do is with Me in your obsessed mind. You work, live and breath for Me. I am your life. Everything you own belongs to Me. Everything you do, you do for Me. Without Me you are nothing. You are worthless. Worthless without a purpose.

You need Me. I am the only reason you live. Living to serve, living to please. Living to worship and adore your almighty Queen.

This is no fantasy anymore. No longer the innocent cyber bit of "fun". This is reality. You were born an inferior weak male. You were born to serve the Superior Sex. You are so lucky I decided you can serve Me.

I hope you remembered to get on your trembling knees when spoken to by Me! I expect you to read every word I write with care and to fully submit your body and soul to Me.

I shall guide you. I shall train you and I shall invade you. You are My little robot and I control you now.
I decide where your destiny lies. I decide what your use is. You will do everything in your pathetic power to ensure Queen is entertained, spoiled and amused. You are My plaything. Your responsibility is to keep the smile on My beautiful lips. Get this through your thick skull boy. I am your Owner. I am your destiny.

I am high above you boy. You will always be looking up to your Queen from a lowly position. Be grateful for your position. Be grateful to grovel at My pretty feet.

I have plans for you. Plans for you and your finances. You may sit there now feeling "strong" feeling as though you can resist and pretend your submissive moneyslave feelings will go away, but they will not. I will train you. I will mold you. I will take you down so deep into your fetish that it will destroy you.

You can try to stay away fisically, but mentally you are trapped. Trapped in the body and mind of a true moneyslave. You crave to give Me your money. I got hold of your weeny little mind, your weak body and bulging wallet.

You will do My every wish. And My deepest wish is to use all of your money for My pleasure. It will make you so happy My little worker bee. Giving it all up to Queen. Suffering for My pleasure.

It is a fact you should simply come to terms with boy. You started by buying a few clips and photos of Me. That was the start of your addiction. And now you are obsessed. Begging for My attention on your knees.

You lost yourself in My beauty and natural Power. I have taken full control over your body, but most of all over your loser mind. You can so easily be manipulated by My undeniable overwhelming power.

I was born to be worshippe. You were born to worship. Do not deny your purpose any further. It will not go away. It is part of you. It is your very reason for existing in this World.

Remain down boy as I take all. Thank Me for the privilege! Serve!

Your  Glorious Queen.

Masturbation Addict Test

Am I a masturbation addict?

Thisequestion had been in my mind for weeks now. Maybe months and maybe subconciously even years: am i addicted to wanking? Can is still stop it without feeling that I miss something?

I decided to take a test (and maybe so should you!): Masturbation Addict Test

The first questions are easy enough.

Gender: male
Age: 51 to 60 years old. Became 51 this summer; getting old!

But then there we go.

How old were you the first time you masturbated (complete with an orgasm?)
- Under 10 years old
- 10 to 12 years old
- 13 to 15 years old
- 16 years old+

For sure I had a few very funny feeling erections under 10 years old. Whenever I passed the house - walking the dog - of a certain young lady who was 2 years above me in school, my fantasy would run away with me. I would be invited to her birthdayparty, being the only guest. She would have a flat tire on her way to school and I was her saviour, lending her my bike and walking to school myself. And she showed her gratitude with kisses and cuddling.
Nothing like that happened of course, but for sure I had the first erections I remember.

Orgams came a few years later. In bed, late in the evening. Touching my penus with a hand. Moving it up and down on the sheets. Feeling the unique sensitivity of the top part of my penus. And then - after some weeks of experimenting - the first orgasm!
Fantasising about a friends mom who I had spotted in her garden while playing there. Sunbathing without a top in very small white swimmingpants, showing some of her pubic hair. Maybe that last part was my imagination, but it was enough at age 11 or max 12 to cum for the first time. Imagining entering her bedroom and finding her in need of a little help. Fastening her bra for instance. But then she would change her mind and I would find myself kissing her breasts. Orgasm! And many happy orgasms after that.

Do you masturbate on a daily basis? Yes or No?
Ok. Feeling a bit awkward. Especially since it is a yes-or-no question.  'No' would maybe theoretically be true, because sure, some days I don't jerk. But to be honest - and so should you be -  not many of those days. Especially in the last 3 years. So: yes.

On average, do you masturbate more than once a day? Yes or No?
Ehm that is a yes. And it seems to be getting more and more. In the morning as I wake up and again in the shower and for sure when I am in bed again at the end of the day. Some days I can't seem to stop wanking.

Do you prefer masturbation over sex? Yes or On occassion I do or No?
For sure I would love to have sex with all of the girls I am wanking for. And honestly: sex with my wife is extremely boring and really non exsistent. But let's be honest: in the last year I had sex with one lady, who wasn't my wife and who I had to pay to let me come close to her. The rest of my sexlife consisted of masturbating to pretty dominant ladies that I will never meet in real life. Thank god for the world wide web!
Yes I prefer wanking over sex!

Do you masturbate significantly more than you have sex? Yes or No?
The answer to that question was in my last reply. Yes, yes, yes.

You consider masturbation to be...: A recreational hobby for your own personal pleasure and entertainment OR Something to do only when your horny and sex isn't readily available.
That's a toughy.
Yes it's a hobby and yes it's pleasure, but it also happens when I am horny and sex isn't available. Because it fucking never is! Still having to choose one of these two answers I am going for number 1.

Can you imagine yourself going a week without masturbating? Yes; Yes but only if I'm guaranteed sex at least every other day; No
Another trick question. Of course I can imagine it. And I tried often enough to not wank for a few days as part of a denial game I was playing online. I even fabricated my own chastity device a while back. It is hell though, no to be able to wank. And getting sex 'yes or no' has nothing to do with it. I have already stated that I'd rather wank than have sex and I never lasted more than a few days without wanking. So that's a 'no'-score.

Are you a frequent viewer of pornographic movies? Yes or No?
I love to watch short porn clips on xhamster and I bought some 10 minute clips on sites as clips4sale and iWantclips but not an awfull lot; less than 1 per month I would estimate but I like them and wank to them.
As for pron movies: I have seen some, but never liked them much. For instance never watched a X-rated movie in a hotel room like so many guys seem to do.
I like to rely on my own rich fantasy and some fantastic sex chat sites with amazing ladies.
'No' it is.

Are you able to view a pornographic movie without having the urge to masturbate at some point? Yes or No?
From my small experience with porn flicks I would have to say 'no' here as well. A beautiful curved lady, kissing another girl or getting Domme gets me hard and in wank mood in no time!

Are you comfortable casually admitting to others that you masturbate? Yes OR Yes but depends who I am talking to OR No
Stop with the trick questions already! Who are 'others'? What is 'casual admitting'?
No I don't tell wife or mom or my friends or colleagues! Yes, many people online know I am an addicted wanker and I have no problem admitting it or talking about it. Allthough I sometimes have trouble showing it.
I guess that makes it a 'no' allthough 'depends' could be the correct answer as well.
Sticking with 'no'.

Would you be comfortable performing a masturbation "show" in front of your lover? Yes Maybe; It depends on the personality of my lover; No?
Well I am not comfortable showing it to my wife, but I showed several ladies if I am in the good (weak) mood. So it really depends on the lady!

Would you be willing to mutually masturbate with a close, platonic, friend? Yes; Actually, I'd be more comfortable mutually masturbating with a platonic friend who I wasn't especially close to; No?
Fuck what kind of questions are this. The idea of wanking with friends makes me feel very uncomfortable unless this friend is one of the ladies I jerk to anyway
So let's go for 'no' againt.

Have you ever masturbated in a public place? Yes, more than once; Yes, but it isn't something that I look to do; No, but I would if the situation permitted; No, only a pervert would.
Right. Time for confessions. Yes I did. No I never had an orgasm wanking in public. Not yet anyway, because sure as hell one of these days it will happen. Yes I am a pervert.
This leaves me with two answers. 'Yes more than once' (but only short I would like to add) and 'No, but I would if the situation permitted'.
Guess that would be a 'yes' to this question.

How long do your masturbation sessions typically last? 60 seconds; 1 to 5 minutes; 5 to 10 minutes; 10 to 20 minutes; 20 to 30 minutes; 30 minutes+?
Ok mister question maker. What do you mean exactly? Masturbation ending in an orgasm? Or just getting hard?
Who am I fooling? Myself?
I love love love to masturbate long. If I get the chance I masturbate for a day before cumming explosive. Edging is my middle name and favorite game!
30 minutes++++++++!

How often do you use any lubes or toys while masturbating? Frequently; Occassionally; Never?
Almost never. I read about it and tried lube and toys (soft stockings for instance and panties; even bought a few worn pairs from a very pretty lady), but I would say less than 1% of my wanks include lube or toys.
So 'never' would be a lie and 'occassionally' would be exaggerating. And since I hate lying I am going for exaggeration.

How (in what position) are you most comfortable masturbating? Standing up; Sitting down; Lying down; On your knees?
Why can't I pick all 4? Tried them all and they all work! Allthough standing up is hardest especially since I like to take my time.
On my knees isn't very comfortable to be honest, but I do so love the ladies who make me get on my knees for them. Trembling and begging and jerking.
Lying down gives the best access to my balls and stimulating them improves orgasms a lot!
But sitting down is a better position to interact with the lady I am wanking for. Online camming is best done sitting in front of a pc I think.
So my answer is: sitting down.

How frequently do you taste your ejaculate? Every time; Occasionally; Never?
Ow yes I do this. No every time mind you, but for sure there are times when I feel such a little loser and tasting my own cum makes that emotion even better!
This probably originates from the lovely demanding lady who made me do this in front of her for the first time. I can still hear her voice coaching me to dip my finger in my sperm, demanding me to put the finger to my lips. She moaned so loud when I finally did that, that I wanted to wank again. And she made me do that. And I tasted more of it. And again ... I guess you get the point.

Do you try to avoid getting your fluids on you during climax? Yes; No?
Never really thought about this. I try to keep my clothes clean. And also I try not to stain the furniture. But I don't mind getting it on my belly or my hands or whatever.
Ehmmm what does that make me?
One more question and we will know!

After being asked all of these questions about masturbation, are you now in the mood to masturbate? Yes; I was already in the mood before taking this quiz; No?
Ok what a stupid question to end this quiz. Of course I am in the mood to wank! And yes I already was! Why in the hell do you think I am doing this quiz?

Ok ok I am calming down. Putting down my last answer: I was already in the mood!

Finished!

Damn! More questions after the click!
Gender?Already answered that one!! Pay attention quiz master. MALE!
Date of birth? I would have put that one down honest if I could change the preset date; it is fixed on January 1 1997. Ok I don't mind being 18 again if it doesnt last too long.
Am I single? No! Well sometimes it feels single.

Finished?

No! No! No! The quiz master wants more data. I am starting to detest this guy. Ok last chance!
Again the gender question and the name of my city and the unchangeable date of birth and a login name and password and email. Come on already .....

FINISHED! FINALLY!

Your result for Masturbation Addict Test ...

Enthusiast

71% Pure!

You are definitely in touch with your sexuality. Good for you for embracing the idea that masturbating is fun!

Yes I agree to that!!
So I am not a total addict but I am having healthy fun!
I will tell this to my wife is she dares to complain!

If you want to do the test, go to  Masturbation Addict Test

 

Deprive Wifey

You are into worshipping me pretty deep it seems.

Not only do you jerk it each and every day to me, but you are so infatuated by me, that you want to spend a huge chunk of your money to talk to me one on one.

I am very happy about this fact. I have been waiting for this opportunity to fuck your mind even harder. I have been waiting for a chance, for you to show your weakness. You are so ready to become all mine. And I know you can't get the thought out of your head of me wrecking your home.

That is so perfect!

I already am doing damage to your marriage. Aren't I?

Look down at your hand. See what it is doing.

You are jerking for me!

You are wanking that cock. Every day you are doing that for me.

I bet you have begun to deprive wifey. Haven't you?

You have already begun to tell her no, because hours before she wants sex, you have drained your balls for me.

I bet your balls are almost always complety dry for me. And if they are not, they are about to be!

Because today I am here to tell you, I will make you all mine. I am going to make you deny your wife. I want you to completely deny her.

I want me to be your number one. Your top priority.

She is nothing anymore.

You I get off on the idea of her being humiliated like that.

Lets do it. Lets do it together.

You have been craving this for so long.

Lets wreck your marriage!

How we are going to do this?

You are going to jerk of to me, at least 4, 5 times a day.

Four, five times a day you are going to look at one of my pictures you put on your phone and you will beat that dick to me. You are going to empty those balls to me. Four or five times a day.

I want your balls drained. I want them aching. I want your cock to hurt so bad that you couldnt get it up for her even if you tried.

I want you to go home at night and to not know what to say to your wife when she asks you why it is so limp and why your balls feel so empty. en get it up if you tried. That bitch is going to think you are having an affair. And you are. With your online Mistress.

And whats more: you are going to pay me for the privelidge, each and every time you jerk it to me. And with four or five times a day, that money is going to rack up nicely!

I don't want this to be a game of pretend. This is real. This is what you have been dreaming of for so long! You asked for this. Now lets do it. Four or five times a day I want to see a tribute rolling into my bank account from you. And I will get that lovely smirk on my face. Knowing that you are one step closer to denying wifey. Knowing that your balls are empty and drained for me.

Knowing that she is probably at home, almost in tears. And knowing that in the long run you are ging to completely fuck up your life for me.

You are going to have to drain your savings accounts, your retirement fund, her credit card.

Vacations? No!

No luxuries for wifey and no luxuries for you. Except the ultimate pleasure that comes from what you are doing right now: jerk it for me!

I really dont blame you. I am better than her in every single way! Does she have big prompt juicy breasts? Does she wear expensive jewellry? Does she know how to do her make up? Is she just perfect and pretty?

NO!

That bitch isnt. She is a sad old hag.

I think I will have to touch myself dayly, thinking of her crying in bed all alone.

Crying in your bed, because you denied her for the third or fourth time that week.

Wondering what the fuck is wrong with her.

I really get of on the idea of her being so upset.

The idea that I will make you hate her!

And she will be wondering what it is that she can do.

Desperately shopping for lingerie. Looking online for new sex tricks to try.

And all along it is fucking worthless bitch, because you, Her husband, is a loser for me.

And I just make you wank and wank and wank and pay!

God I would love to tell this in her ugly face and watch her cry.

And you are so deep into my spell.

You know the beauty of this? The more you stroke it to me, the more you become mine.

And every time you allow that cock to spill your cum for me, those balls to drain for me, each and every time you do that, you associate that feeling with pleasure. You associate me with pleasure. I am molding you to only want me.

You will want to deny her.

Maybe at first you will have little pangs of guilt. But eventually it is going to become something you love. That you look forward to. Something that you really enjoy doing.

You will even get a sick sadistic thrill from telling wifey 'no'. Thinking of ways why you can't have sex. A headache, you feel sick. And finally being a bastard to her and telling her she is ugly. Too fat. She doesn't turn you on anymore.

Maybe I will make you so crazy for me, that you will tell her the truth. You will tell her that instead of fucking her, you prefer jerking of to me online. That it feels better to have your hand wrapped around your cock, than to fuck her dried up cunt.

And she is to blame you know. She deserves this. No legitimate woman, no woman who deserves a man like you, would have a husband paying to jerk online. That bitch had this coming. Let's punish her. Let's punish her together. Your life will become a financial hell because of your addiction to me. I will laugh hard spending your cash, while wifey cries, getting less and less.

I know you want this. And all you will have to do, is to deprive her of things. If she wants expensive wine with her food: no. If she wants to go out for dinner: tough shit. If she wants a birthday present: fuck that!

All of your money belongs to me! I am slowly rewiring your brain. Making you desperate to stroke for me. You are going to do all kinds of things. Four or five times a day you will be running of to the bathroom. You will be pumping that dick in the restroom at work.

I don't care if you get home at night and she is begging for sex, if she puts her fat sagging body on top of you, basically forcing sex upon you. I don't care if you have to push that bitch of. You are mine! You will run into the bathroom and cum for me!

And it will feel so good!

Why don't we do a first drain right now! A ball drain and a wallet drain! I want these drains to count! I want the to hurt! I don't care if its four or five times a day. You will do it because I want it! And I want nice big cums every time!

Let's drain your bankaccount fast in case you get scared. Let's drain your bankaccount fast before wifey catches on. Let's make it hurt financially. For you and for her.

Load up a nice tribute. Get it ready for me. And pump that cock away for me. Fantasise about how we will fuck your wife up. Family vacations? No more. Savings account? Gone! All into my bankaccount. Just where it belongs.

And she will be so ashamed. Why can't she get you hard anymore? Maybe she will joing a gym to lose weight. Maybe she will turn into a better person. Desperately trying sexy lingerie for you, put on slutty lipstick and high heels, get her nails done and her hair done.

And it's all pointless. Because I own you.

But I will humiliate her more. I love mindfucking her as well as you. I have all this power over you. All this power and soon I will have all your money. Jerking at work, jerking in your car going home. Making sure you cock is limp and your balls dry by the time you get home. Ready for wifey.

And the only thing that will get you hard is thinking of me. But you don't have to get hard for her. No more pity fucks. Total denial. You will never fuck me and you will never fuck her again!

You will love it. Ball drained over and over.

Are you ready/ Are you ready to blow your load for me? Ready to send your nice big fat tribute? Get your finger on the 'send tribute' button and keep your other hand wrapped around your cock.

Pump it for me! Click and pay and cum. Pay to cum! Cum for me. Pay me. Deprive wifey.

And you will do this over and over. I will rewire you. I am going to condition you to love me. And condition you to hate that bitch. This will be so much fun!

Hypno Control

Hello slave.

I hope you realise how much control I will gain over you.

You are playing with fire.

But you crave and desire Me. Don't you?!

I want you to sit back and relax.

Listen to my voice going deeper in your mind.

Concentrate 100% on My eyes.

Look deep into my eyes and feel yourself relax more.

Allow my voice to flow gently into your ears.

Relax and concentrate on my beautiful eyes.

Sit back. Relax and breath deeply.

Let my eyes take you to another world.

A quiet peacefull world.

There is only you and me.

Relax.

Gently move your right hand over your body.

Caress your body as my voice caresses your mind.

Gentle so gentle touch your own body.

Relax and touch your own body.

Feel the pleasure of my voice. The pleasure of your touch.

Take deep breaths. Enjoy your breathing.

Breath deep into my eyes and let your hand wander lower.

Go slow. So slow.

Take long slow drawn out breaths.

Feel the relaxation.

Focus on my eyes.

Your hand is touching your manhood now.

So gentle. So slow.

Look into my eyes. Relax.

I will count down now.

From one to ten.

Keep your focus on my eyes.

Breath in and gently stroke your cock.

Stroke it softly for me while I start to count down.

From one to ten.

Keep your focus on my eyes. Stroke gently.

Concentrate totally on my eyes. Allow your voice to penetrate your eyes.

We start counting down now.

Stroke ever so gently.

Ten …. My eyes now stare directly into yours.

You feel so happy staring into my eyes.

You feel so happy stroking to my voice.

Nine … So relaxed now. So relaxed and going deeper and deeper into your trance.

Eight … My voice is all you hear. My eyes are deep into your mind. Stroke for me ever so slow.

Seven … Going deeper. My eyes are drawing you in. You want to stay here for ever. You are so happy and so relaxed.

Six … Stroke so gently. Relax and stroke to my voice.

Five … My voice is so powerfull. You want to do everything my voice tells you. Relax and look deep into my eyes. Relax and become totally mine. So slow. So gentle.

Four … Hand your control over to me now. Relax and give yourself to me. Stroke gentle and feel so good for me.

Three … Breath slow. I control you now.

Two … So weak now.

One … So deeply relaxed. So deeply in love with my eyes.

Zero … Permission now. Permission to hand over total control to my eyes. Stroke your manhood so soft. Relax and hand over your control.

You are totally mine now. I control all your actions. I dictate all your actions. You are mine now. Addicted. Continually craving to serve me. Adore me. Spoil me. So weak for me.

Keep stroking so slow slave.

Stroke only for me.

Wank next to wifey

Hello naughty little hubby.

You are going to be a very bad boy for me tonight.

Are you in bed next to your wife?

Because you should be!

Take your iPad or phone to the bedroom and watch me.

Use your earplugs to listen to me and do as I tell you!

Lie down next to your wife.

Turn your back to the ugly bitch and keep watching me.

Keep listening to my beautiful sexy voice fucking your mind so hard.

Do you like what I am wearing today?

Of course you like it!

You payed for this sexy red bikini and the matching panties.

But most of all you payed for my sexy high heels.

And I love to wear them. Because I know it drives you crazy to see me dressed up like this.

In clothes your wife would never wear.

And even if the old hag did wear these clothes, she would never look so sexy and seductive as I do.

I know you dream of divorcing her and marrying me.

But you know what? You are already mine!

I can make you do whatever I want!

Wank your dick for me next to wifey!

Make your dick rockhard for me!

You were already hard for me. I know! But I want you even harder.

I want you on the brink of exploding. Desperate to cum for me!

Craving to give me all your sperm.

Focus on my red panties. I will spread my legs a little for you.

Drool boy! Drool for what you will never have. Drool for what makes you my slave.

Hmmm I love it when you are so desperate.

I bet you even forgot that you are next to your wife.

So hard for me.

Stroke for your Princess. Right next to your wife.

Look at her for a minute.

Look how ugly and old she is.

Now look at your computer screen and moan for my perfection!

Look at my head to toe perfection.

No wonder you rather want to jerk of for me than fuck her.

Come on hubby. Work that cock for your sexy Princess.

Such a good boy!

Moaning and wanking for me.

If you make more noise you will wake up the hag.

Focus on how hot I am. How fucking perfect I am.

Stroke your cock for me.

You will give me all that cum.

I know you love saving it up for me.

Telling that fucking bitch that you are too tired. That you have a headache. Or that work was really stressfull.

Any reason to not fuck that ugly nasty bitch. To save your cum for jerking of to me.

I trained you well!

I turned you into a jerking addict.

Jerking for me is so much better than fucking your wife.

I completely satisfy all your needs.

I am all that you will ever need!

Your wife can never satisfy you.

We both know that you are obsessed to jerk for me.

You need to hear my voice humiliating you.

You beg to see me.

And when I cross my legs or gently touch my breasts, your dick twitches so hard!

You are completely addicted!

And stroking next to that bitch you married proves it.

You didn't doubt my order for a second.

I think you want her to find out about me.

You probably imagined her catching you wanking for me.

She would know right away that she doesnt stand a chance against my beauty.

And you would cum so hard when your marriage would be wrecked like that!

She can know the truth.

I am sexier, hotter and so much more beautiful.

I am the dream Lady you never will touch.

But you can watch me. You can listen to me. You can jerk for me.

And she will never stand between us!

Feel your dick throb so hard when you realise how fucked up you are.

How I fucked your brain into feeling nothing for wifey anymore.

How you dont care if she is hurt by your wankaddiction to me.

That feels so sexy for me!

I love my power over you.

The power to control you with my long slim legs.

To drive you crazy talking about my tight pussy but never showing it to you. To make you drool over my perfect round firm breasts.

Hers are hanging and small.

She is ugly and she let herself go.

And I know her ass will never ever compare to mine. Not even close.

I am perfect!

Come on hubby. Work your cock for me. Work your cock for Princess, right next to your wife.

I know you are so close to cumming.

And when you cum I want you to say my name.

You are getting of to my hot body.

Not hers. Never hers.

So you will say my name when you cum!

Be a good naughty husband for me. Scream my name when you cum.

Moan when you cum.

Do it! I don't care if the bitch catches you.

You belong to me.

And I couldnt care less about her feelings or ego.

She is fucking disgusting.

I am saving you from her. You never have to fuck her again.

You only have to wank for me.

You are so ready to cum now.

I know you so well. I know what you need.

You need your Princess.

You need to wank for your Princess.

You need to cum for Princess.

And I know you will spoil me later.

Thanking me for giving you such a good time.

Thanking me for saving you from fucking your ugly wife.

I want you to cum for me!

Cum next to your wife!

And keep pumping that dick till there is not a drop of sperm left!

Make sure your balls are totally empty.

Say my name!

Squeeze all out for Princess.

Such a rush wanking for me next to your wife.

I own your cock. I own your balls. I!love to drain them totally dry.

And I love to train you into my cumslut. Not a drop left for that disgusting hag.

I deserve it all.

Leave nothing for wifey.

And I don't care if she catches you, or if your wanking causes a fight or her crying.

I don't care. And so shouldnt you!