Slow destruction

It's one of those days. The tension has been building up since morning. Or maybe it already started before that. It's hard to tell and there is no use thinking about where it came from. It's just there. An overwhelming feeling. An obsession. From deep inside my brain. Carefully hidden. Secret.

It scares me when the feeling comes. Scares and excites me. I know I can't push it away. It will only come back stronger and the tension will keep growing. First somewhere deep in my stomach. Soft. Lingering. Like a tickle.

A tickle that suddenly shoots to my brain. Like a rocket. Without a warning. Bursting with light. Taking over all my thoughts. Like big waves of the ocean. Attacking the beach at high tide. Wave after wave. Relentless. Just enough time to breath between each burst of obsessive thoughts. But never enough time to get them out of my mind.

She.

She is so much more beautiful then wife. In every single way.

She is younger. Dresses more sexy. Wears amazing make up. Has long red nails. Sharp and ready to attack. The kind of heels on Her feet that wife would never wear. The kind that she says only sluts wear. And She knows my secrets.

The dark ones.

The ones that make me think of wife as an ugly cow. A fat ugly cow.

Compared to Her. Well. There is nothing even remotely comparable.

A Goddess and a boring hag, that shouldn't even exist.

It's already happening. I can't hide it anymore. I'm obsessed with my Goddess. Jerking off for hours already. Staring at her photos and clips. Edging my cock in a trance. Hoping She will be online soon. Leaving desperate messages on Her mail.

I stopped fucking wife long ago. It gives me no pleasure and I can't even get hard with her. But even the smallest thought of Goddess makes me so amazingly hard.

Thinking about Her, while I was in bed this morning next to wife. Touching my dick for Goddess. Looking at her pics while wife was reading in bed. Touching my dick for Goddess.

It is the only way I can get off. Wanking for Goddess! Her amazing curves. Those fantastic firm big breasts and great ass. So many times I imagined it on my face. Her bright red lips and long hair. She is perfect!

And I know what She thinks about wife. She told me last time. Sometimes wifes are convenient, She had said. Cooking. Cleaning. But not in my case. I could be spending so much more time and money with Goddess if wife wasn't around!

Pleasing Goddess more. Despising wife more.

That is what Goddess wants. That is what I want!

She is a disgusting piece of woman. I should stop denying myself. I should focus on Goddess more. On Her needs. On Her demands!

I don't even care that wife suspects that something is going on. That I get that far away look in my eyes when I think of Goddess.

Not fucking her anymore and not paying attention to her boring stories.

Goddess was so proud of me when I told Her that I don't fuck wife anymore. That my dick is sore from wanking off to Goddess. She loves that! Especially when I said it out loud and jerked my dick for Her at the same time. This is how Goddess wants me to be.

Worshipping Her. Homewrecking wife.

She taught me how to do this. She taught me how every stroke for Her counts. How every euro that I put in Her account, is so good! Fuck the presents for wife. Give Goddess those great designer heels that She desires. Pay for Her holiday. Fund Her new car.

She is so evil. So beautiful. She loves to control my mind. Each time a little bit more.

I know what She wants. It scares me but my dick gets hard. I want to do it. It will make Her so proud! She wants me to visit Her. To take a plane and go to Her. She doesn't care what excuse I use. She just wants me there. At Her feet. Worshipping Her and Her alone. Spending all my savings on Her!

She gave me one week to come up with a plan. One week or She will not allow me to see Her on cam anymore.

So this is where I am. Jerking to Her photos. Worshipping Her. Everything about Her. Knowing She will destroy me. Litttle by little. And getting so excited by that idea.

She knows I want to serve Her. She knows She can demand everything from me.

First She destroyed my sexlife.

I don't want to fuck ever again. I just want to wank for Her.

Now She is destroying my marriage. And I am doing nothing to stop Her. No I am actually doing everything to make that happen.

She demanded a video of wife sleeping and me jerking of to Her pictures next to wife.

And I recorded it for Her.

It made Her so proud!

And now She will be online soon.

Waiting for my answer.

And She will destroy me.

And I want it.

Highschool Dream

Are you still dreaming of it my little loser?

Ofcourse you are. You are thinking about it almost every day.

The day you saw me walking towards you. We were both in high school.

Me, so beautiful just starting high school. So young. But so very not innocent.

You almost leaving high school. Never a date. Never a kiss. A classic loser.

You couldn't keep your eyes of me. And at the same time you were afraid to look at me.

Afraid that I would really notice you.

But why would I want to notice you?

Already at that age I could get every guy doing everything I wanted. Including the teachers. They were so happy to please me for some attention. But thats a story for another time.

I never noticed you.

You always saw me.

Ofcourse.

Tight jeans on long legs.

Perfect ass.

High heels.

Leather jacket.

Long hair.

So pretty!

I was walking towards you.

Getting so close that you could hear my heels clicking and clacking on the tiles of the hallway.

I would pass you any second now.

Maybe you would catch a wiff of my perfume.

Would you dare to look at me?

Secretly, your eyes avoiding mine ...

Your perfect dream girl.

“Aren't you suppossed to give me something, boy?”

Your heart was making overtime.

You had stopped in your tracks, right in front of me.

Your face turning red. Lips and knees trembling. My perfume entering your nose.

“I need lunch? Don't I?”

“God you boys are such losers!”

“Come on! Get that wallet out and give me some cash for a sandwich and a coke.”

From the corner of your eye you saw my hand stretched out. Ready to recieve.

“Or even better. Go and get and it for me! A sandwich with tomato, ham and lettuce and a coke. I don't want to wait in line. Servants like you can do that for me!”

“ Hurry! I will be waiting in the smoking area outside.”

You collected all your courage to confirm my demands.

“ Yes Goddess”, the guy next to you said.

And I was already walking away.

Not noticing you.

Maybe it would be your turn next time.

Maybe never.

So many losers to tease and torture.

So many piggies dreaming of serving me.

Isn't it about time you stopped dreaming?

I love playing with you

Have you missed me?

I always miss you when we are not playing together.

I know you are sitting there now. In front of your computer. Waiting for my words to guide you in your guilty pleasure.

No one has to know about this. Just you and me.

I know you are horny today.

You are always so horny when you are with me.

So eager for me. For my beautiful body.

Put me really big on your screen right now. Watch me closely. I want to be right up to your face, while you hope that my nipples will slip right out of my dress. Hmmmm that idea makes you so big and hard.

You love looking at me. Me teasing you.

Let your hand run up and down over your trousers.

Keep your dick in your pants for now.

Touch it through the cloth of your pants.

Feel how hard your cock is for me. Rub it for me. That big chunky dick!

I know it wants to come out. But not yet. I want to tease it. I want it rock hard in your pants. For me!

Just look at my red lips. My tongue licking my soft red lips.

Copy my movement. Lick your lips and feel how soft they are.

I know you want to kiss my lips.

Do you think I will let you today?

Touching my soft red lips with your mouth.

Hmmmm that would feel so good.

How is your cock doing? Is it hard for me?

Do you think your cock wants to come out.

Do you want to show me how big you are?

Take it out!

Take your cock out and rub it for me.

Up and down. Gently but strong.

Grab your balls for me! Grab them in your hand and imagine my long nails are grabbing those balls and squeezing them.

Hmmmmmm. Dont' worry. I wont squeeze hard. Not right away!

Lube your cock for me and grap it in one hand.

Hold it tight and start stroking it. Slow. Slow. Watch me. Follow my rythm!

Slow, long strokes. Making your dick grow even more.

Up and down. Do it! Make yourself feel good.

Just you and me here.

Hmmmm my nipples are getting so hard. And I know that makes your cock even harder.

Good boy!

Stroke it. Up and down. Hmmmmm give me a little precum. That is so sexy. That drop precum on your cock.

Put it on your fingertip and taste it. Taste that salty first drop of cum.

Mmmm. So good! Take your cock in 2 hands!

Stroke with two hands while you taste that cum. That is so, so sexy.

Whisper my name while you stroke. Or just say “Goddess”. I know that turns you on. To wank for your Goddess.

Now use one hand again. We will need your free hand for some other business.

Do you know what I am talking about?

Stroke faster for me now! Faster!

Get yourself all worked up for your pretty Goddess.

You know what I want.

Say it!

Tell me what I want from you.

I want a really big, gooey, jummy … Tribute!

Hmm yes!! You know what your Goddess wants!

So as fast as your got your dick out of your pants, whip your wallet out now. And keep stroking!

Keep stroking that dick up and down. Pump it and kiss that wallet.

Oh yes that is so sexy! The two sexiest things in the world. Your fat cock and your even fatter wallet. Hmmm Goddess loves this. And you know it!

Now touch your wallet with your dick. Good boy!

Put some cum on your wallet. Yessss. That feels so sexy. I know you love this!

Now lick the cum of and repeat after me: “I belong to Goddess. My dick belongs to Goddess. My wallet belongs to Goddess!”

Hmmm. Yes! So good! Repeat it. I want to hear you say it! “I belong to Goddess. My dick belongs to Goddess. My wallet belongs to Goddess!”

Make Goddess extra happy now! Get your credit card out of your wallet! That beautiful sexy credit card that will satisfy all my needs!

Get your credit card out and keep stroking. Keep yourself in that fabulous sub zone. The zone where you want to worship me and spoil me and give me everything!

We both love that so much!

Put that card in your mouth! You don't need to look at the numbers. You know them by heart. The sexy 16 numbers and the validation code.

Yes!

Enter them on your keyboard on my Tribute page.

And wank!

Go down with your hand on each number. And up!

Go down on the next number. And up!

You will cum so hard. You will make me so happy!

My nipples are so hard in my dress. And my pussy .. Hmmmmmm

You will cum so hard all over yourself for me and you are so close!

Decide how much you want to tribute me!

Are you ready to cum?

Wank for me! I want to see you cum and I want a high tribute!

Stroke it. Stroke it faster!

Give it to me and add an extra zero to the tribute!

Do it!

Give me your best orgasm in 5 seconds!

Give me your highest tribute!

It will feel so good. It will make you cum so hard!

Do it!

Stroke and Tribute!

Cum for me now!

Push that “pay” button!

Do it!

Oh yesssss!

Such a good boy! I love playing with you!

I love how you cum

I love how you pay!

My Addiction

am addicted to porn

I am addicted to paying beauitful camgirl and wanking for them.

I am addcited to mechanical, mindless, robotic wanking

I have a serious problem

A wank addiction

Vanilla sex no longer does it for me

My cock no longer craves pussy

It craves my hand, my fingers, my palm

I have done a lot of damage to myself

My masculenity has gone

My sex life is being ruled by my dick and beautiful online Dommes

I crave those Dommes

They know what's best for me

They welcome a loser like me

A loser craving their attention

Craving their beauty

Craving to pay them

They know how to help me

Their beautiful smiles make me so happy

I can only do exactly as they say

They make my dick so hard

They make me feel so good

And I so love to pay them

They make me relax

And at the same time feel so excited

So proud to serve them and confess my sins to them

They put me in a trance

They mesmorize me

They make me feel such a good slave. Such a good boy

The rest of the world fades away when I with them

When I can stare at their beauty.

Their beautiful curves.

Their perfect make up and sexy high heels.

So focussed on their beauty.

Manipulating me into paying them more and more.

Paying for their manicures. For their hairappointments. For their happiness.

My dick getting so incredibly hard

Edging. Edging. Edging.

Feeling so good, paying for their beauty.

So aroused!

Aching desire to worship.

Having so much pleasure being a wank and pay addict.

From the tips of my toes to the tips of my fingers.

Every part of my body feeling so good when I'm worshipping a Goddess with my wallet.

Sexual energy tingling in my brain. Streaming through my body.

Craving to be taken deeper.

My cock harder and harder for the Goddess.

Totally focussed on her.

Not able to stop paying her.

Not wanting to cum yet.

Edging and edging my rock hard rock.

She controls my sexual energy.

She controls my credit card.

She is the only thing that matters for me.

Paying her!

Having her rule my life.

My mind so soft and lost.

My cock so hard and trembling.

Her manipulative words draining me more and more.

Worshipping her is so good!

It is the only pleasure I need.

I want her to rule my life.

I want her to rule my aching, dripping cock.

I want her to rule my wallet.

So desperate to cum for her.

And she knows.

She loves desperate weak boys.

She loves to milk my wallet.

And I need it.

Every day!

A beautiful addiction

Like what you see loser?

I bet you do! I bet your eyes can't get enough! Can they?

Of course not.

Your Goddess dressed in a tight catsuit.

My beautiful breasts covered in a very thin layer of nylon.

And still you can't see them.

Just the shape of my beautiful big breasts.

And it drives you crazy!

Such a good boy to come home early for me. For your beautiful Princess.

Wifey still at work and you are already staring at your computer screen.

Drooling over my curves.

And paying for every second that you are drooling!

Such a good Findom addicted boy! A real Findom junkie.

You just can't stop yourself coming here and paying me.

Paying for my sexy small ass. Jerking off so hard. Coming over and over!

Being humiliated by my bratty words.

Feeling so small and obsessed!

Yes I know.

I know you are so obsessed. Your day is so sad when you can't wank for me and pay me tributes.

Obsessed by submission to me.

You love being teased.

By my voice. By my long legs. By my long curly hair.

You can't stop staring at me.

Jerking at your hard cock. On your knees. Being teased …. and denied.

That feels so good!

I love you on your knees loser

That is where you belong. Right there. Below me. Staring at my ass. My perfect ass.

You would do anything to sniff it. To kiss it.

You are such a little whore. Such a little slut.

Jerking your cock to dozens and dozens of beautiful women like me. Girls who will never look at you twice.

Your only chance is to worship them. To pay them for their time.

Pray to them. Day after day after day.

And your cock loves it so much! Your cock can't get enough of the view of my curves.

My nails touching my breasts. Gently stroking the nylon of my catsuit.

And you know they are touching my nipples. My sexy hard nipples.

Not that you can see them.

But that doesnt matter. I'm deep in your loser mind. Teasing you. Manipulating you. Making you pay more and more.

This is what you want so much!

Edge that cock in worship loser.

Your cock will never be worth to touch my body. To feel my nipples.

And you know this. You know it's not for you. Not my nipples. Not my ass.

You know will never touch it.

You are just a little jerker. Just a loser that never gets layed.

A loser that has to pay beautiful girls just to have a wank.

And it makes you feel so good to worship me with your cash.

Hmmmmm. I love to tease you.

Look at me! Look at the wet stain in my catsuit.

Yes loser! That made you twitch!

The thought of my pussy, hidden under that thin layer of nylon.

You will never get to see it. Never get to touch it!

Say it!

Pussy Pussy Pussy. Not for you!

Always jerking. Always paying!

This is never going to end! And you know it! You will never get away from this!

From this addiction to beautiful Domme women. Teasing you. Humiliating you.

You need it every day of your life!

You will never stop worshipping me.

You will never stop wanting to jerk to me.

You will never stop craving to pay me.

And just when you think you can escape your addiction … I will post another clip. Or another picture. A new tweet

And it pulls you right back into your obsession. So deep!

You need that clip. You want that picture. You will beg me for it. And you will pay me for it!

And that's such a good feeling! It excites me and it excites you! You need this feeling and you never want it to stop!

You want to give me all! Your cock wants it!

Hmmmm!

Put your hand on that cock and jerk for me! Jerk it so hard right now!!

That cock never wants to stop worshipping me! Your cock never wants to stop cumming for me!

Being denied by me.

It's so funny. You are such a loser for me. I can make you do whatever I want.

Just a little moan from my pretty mouth. A flash of my high heels. My long nails showing you the loser sign.

You love everything about me and with each stroke your addiction grows and grows!

You want to worship me so bad!

You want me to tell you, that you are such a good boy.

A good good boy, wanking his money away for my long legs and sexy feet.

Do it loser! But no cumming yet! No, no no!

Edge! Edge to my body. Give me more of your cash.

So deep into Findom! And I will take you deeper! I know this is what you want. This is what you crave. Because you know it will please me! And you want to please me.

That feeling of submission! Jerking because I tell you. Cumming when I tell you to.

That's what you want. That's what you need!

Submitting. Bowing. Being a little loser for your Goddess. A little bitch!

Such a jerk, jerk, jerk moron!

This feels so good! When I make you feel small. When I make you feel my little bitch. You don't need anything else in this world.

I know you want me to take over your life. I know that idea makes you so fucking hard. Having my collar around your neck. Owned for life!

Go on! Pay me more! Pay me and tell me you want to be owned for life!

Pay me and tell me who owns you! Worship your Goddess, little bitch! My loser Findom junkie!

Wank and pay. Wank and pay .Ssuch a good boy! Unable to stop staring at me. Unable to stop paying me!

I will take you down so deep! Yes my loser.

You will please me. Spend more for me! Do everything in your power to make me a very happy Goddess.

Yes you know this is your place. You know what you have to do! And you will do it! You will keep wanking for me. You will keep paying me!

You are going to give all to me! And it will make you feel so proud!

And tomorrow you will be back!

Dick in hand.

Credit card ready!

To spoil me.

To wank for me.

Feeding your Findom addiction.

Such a good loser for Goddess!